2022 Survivors of Suicide Loss Support Group – Offered virtually via Zoom the 3rd Wednesday of each month at 7:00 p.m. Support is also available by telephone, FaceTime, and face-to-face visits adhering to health and safety COVID protocols. Please contact 519-752-2998, ext. 112 for assistance
The group is an opportunity for survivors to connect with other survivors and talk openly about suicide, with people who really understand what you are going through. The group is facilitated by persons who have lost loved ones to suicide. For more information, or for log-in instructions please call 519-752-2998, ext. 112 or email firstname.lastname@example.org
People who are impacted by suicide loss are the most courageous people we know. Be well, be peaceful, be hopeful.
Normal Reactions to Suicide Loss
Shock and Numbness
Suicide bereavement is one of the most intensely painful experiences you are likely to undergo. The pain may be so overwhelming initially, that your natural defence mechanism shuts down. At some point the numbness leaves and you will need to go through the pain that is buried.
Deep sadness is normal. Other common feelings experienced may include helplessness, hopelessness, fear, failure, anxiety, depression, rejection and abandonment.
Anger and Blame
Anger and blame may be directed towards those you perceive to have been at fault. These may include doctors, counselors, friends, family, yourself or even the person that died.
Survivors of suicide often feel they missed or ignored earlier warning signs of distress. Hindsight plays a role in this. Others may have decided to give up trying to help as they needed distance to keep themselves healthy.
It may be difficult to discuss the cause of death for fear of being judged. Rather than telling stories, it is okay to say you are not ready to talk about the loss. Some people continue to believe the myth that all people who die by suicide are either mentally ill or come from dysfunctional families. Others who care may stay away as they do not know what to say or how to be helpful. Let friends and family know what you need from them.
You may feel relief after a suicide, especially when the relationship with the deceased has been difficult and chaotic or if you have watched the person suffer for a long time.
You may not fully accept the reality of the suicide. You may move in and out of denial. This is especially common in the beginning of grief.
“Why” questions over and over in an effort to understand the reason your loved one died by suicide is a normal part of the healing process. With suicide, even when people think they have touched upon the answer – the “Why” question continues to surface.
You may fear that other family members or friends will die. Loss of self-esteem and confidence in problem solving or decision-making is normal.
The world as you knew it changed the moment your loved one died. Grief impacts everything including sleep patterns, eating habits, concentration, energy levels and motivation.
Spiritual or Religious Beliefs
Spiritual beliefs and values previously held may be challenged. You may question the meaning or purpose of life. Fear of rejection by your religious community can also be a factor.
Thinking About Suicide
Due to the intensity of the grief process, some people just want the pain to end and begin to experience suicide related thoughts. Having these thoughts is common and does not mean you will act on them. However, it is important to seek help and have an assessment completed regarding these thoughts and feelings.
If you feel you need more support than family or friends can provide, contact your doctor or counseling agency in your area. Other resources include Canadian Mental Health Associations, spiritual community, bereavement support group, crisis line and Provincial, Territorial or Regional Distress or Suicide Line.
Coping Strategies for Living with Suicide Grief
Claim your right to grieve
Not only is it important to grieve, it is necessary to experience the pain of the suicide loss in order to gain relief. Remember the grief process takes a long time and may never be fully resolved.
Grief is emotional. It is a natural response to a traumatic loss. Make time to grieve. Let people you trust know when you need support. Teach others how they can be helpful. Most people will not automatically know what you need. Talk to others who have experienced a loss by suicide.
Doing something active rather than just thinking to resolve emotions is healthy. Examples include, journaling, writing letters, walking and exercising.